this is for kevin

My dear sweet KEVIN,
That time has drawn near
Again its that time of year
That time of year I dread,
The painful day we laid you to rest.

So often I think of how much I have missed
all these years every day I have wished
just for a second chance to give you
everything you wanted to see and do...
I dont know how to make this part go away
it hurts so much every single day
my life is so twisted - so much i am to blame
you would still be here if it wasn't for -[the name]

what you did for me was so brave
how you suffered and had to have been so afraid
One should be so grateful
each day to you be ever so thankful
the idea I just cant and will not entertain
this tragedy will forever remain
deep within my mind forever in my heart
I can not let it go , it tears me apart.

holding your body so so cold bleeding and torn
over and over this image Ive worn
the tears I cried fell to your face
my sweet brother nothing i say can replace
I am so very sorry I left you there alone
everything would of been so different had i known
you were always there for me
you taught me so much

because of you- through me- to my children -you have touched.

How they would of cherished you

just as i have and always do.

I its so hard to stop once I start
I miss you my sweet brother my best friend with all of my heart
you were you are everything to me
I miss you I love you -your sister ''sissy''.
good night kevin
until next time.....